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Tuesday, August 29th, 2006
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yes, i have the old life. but yes, i'm finding a more passionate and devote one. and yes, i think i like it.
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Wednesday, August 9th, 2006
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and in Him we pray and put our faith.
what more can we do in this war-filled world?
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Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
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somedays, i just don't know how to handle it.
-living alone
-getting ready for college alone
-shopping alone
-cleaning alone
-driving alone
-being alone
where's the guidance that everyone else seems to be getting as we all venture off to the next part of our lives? i can't do this on my own.
Exodus 18:17-19
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Sunday, January 8th, 2006
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this life is starting to get ridiculous...yesterday our tournament started off badly, but then improved as we competed with lahser and lost, but we played our butts off for a while, that's for sure. anyways, last night sucked more than the morning of losing--i went to visit an old friend at her house party, when the cops showed up and wanted to tow my car...first of all, i don't know why i get myself into these situations, and second of all, i don't know why i even thought for one second that things would be the same...
well, they're not. that's for sure. she's got a 22 year old boyfriend (fine, whatever, but he's pretty white-trash) and she's got 6 other roommates in this house, all who are over 20. it just seems a bit weird to me that she turned out like this--partying and such all the time, and then the party gets so big that the cops have to show up....yea, that's real cool. i wish i wouldn't have gone so i would still have that middle-school best friend image of her. but i guess things really do change, whether we'd like to accept it or not.
on a lighter note, my day did have its perks. i saw so many people that i love and miss a lot at the tournament today (WLN vballas, mrs. essian mostly, but also mrs. krane and all the old coaches...renee. jess. murr. kelsey and katie.) it's good to see people who actually know you, and i miss that this year about coaching/our team. i feel like we aren't very personal with our coach, and i love that relationship i've had on other teams...but once again...each team is different, and you can't expect the same thing out of them all or you'll constantly be disappointed.
yea, and my individual entries AND my portfolio got gold keys in Scholastics...meaning that they will now go on to regionals in New York. if they win from there, they go on to DC, which would be amazing, but i'm just happy they got this far!!!
and congrats to kelly hurd, adrian f. (lol), kalie strzelecki on their portfolio and individual keys. and steph--way to go on "her window".
<3
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Monday, January 2nd, 2006
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i can't believe i've crossed over, but these past few days have been hell and i needed a fresh start...thus the absense of livejournal and the introduction to myspace
for some reason i dont think this is going to fulfill my needs...
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Sunday, December 25th, 2005
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it's sad when i can't even spend christmas with my favorite person. he's all alone at home and there's nothing that i can do about it...as they say i have to "roll with the punches". i hate that saying and i don't want things to be this way.
**side note**
birthday celebration for me, nicole, and rachel on the night of the 29th. we're dressing up (that means skirts or short dresses; nice shirts and pants for you boys) and going out to eat at the bamboo club. anyone can join us if they'd like, just let me or rach or nicole know as soon as possible.
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Saturday, December 24th, 2005
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well it started out alright...and then someone came up with the brilliant idea of going out to dinner as a "family". nick left first and then dad, so there i was with the devil herself who says that nothing is her fault.
when is this all going to just be over? happy holidays.
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Friday, December 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 11:51 pm. |
| Mood: |  hyper. | | Music: | honey and the moon. thanks ren!. |
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Finnnnn: its grayt
way to sound it out kel. just thought i'd update this...you won't remember this in the morning, but good job. love you girl!
shopped today (mall=insane). visited with LC and her madre. dinner with seanty and shane and chelsea. the notebook with dad. wrapped presents. tomorrow should be fun i hope...choir and midnight mass. yay! merry christmas everyone. spread the joy!
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Sunday, December 18th, 2005
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| Time: | 7:50 pm. |
| Mood: |  drained. | | Music: | satellite. |
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my mind has just been all over the place this weekend...so much is changing, not only my age, but everthing else. and i just can't handle this anymore. it's been going on for so long and i'm broken. i'm just ready to crash and burn and sign out for the time present. it's just, who does a girl go to when God takes so long to respond and my own thoughts are driving me crazy? absolutely. i feel like i belong in some other place or that i need to take a week or two off to just go. i need to just leave here...this house this town this life. just for a little while. my head is getting too full of ideas and opinions and words that i don't allow myself to express and i can't help myself. i've never been taught how to portray feelings and it's not something i can teach myself. where do i go from here? i'm so trapped.
God, I surrender.
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Thursday, December 15th, 2005
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temptations all around me.
and i give in.
challenges keep coming.
when will i triumph over them
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Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
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Because of the service by which you have proved yourselves, men will praise God for the obedience that accompanies your confession of the gospel of Christ, and for your generosity in sharing with them and with everyone else.
-2 Corinthians 9:13
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
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Sunday, December 11th, 2005
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let us walk by the same rule,
let us mind the same thing.
-proverbs 3:16
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Saturday, December 10th, 2005
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forgot to mention in the last post that i now have the option of being a wolverine.
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Friday, December 9th, 2005
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| Time: | 11:03 pm. |
| Mood: |  glad. | | Music: | wonderwall. |
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well that was fun.
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Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
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ap english discussion really got me thinking...and i hope others can open their minds a bit. this will be good. still contemplating
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Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
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and the rib, which the Lord God had taken from man, made he a woman, and brought her unto the man.
-Genesis 2:22
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Monday, December 5th, 2005
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tomato basil soup. sweatpants. fireside. hope.
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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
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well work was alright last night...other than the fact that we were late b/c we were locked out of alyssa's house. i love that girl so much!
yea we're going to go to london this summer together. planning spring break details today with ren, hopefully that goes well...hanging out with alyssa later and then working...ohh pinewood
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Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
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i don't know how.
seeing then that we have such hope, we use great plainness of speech.
-II Corinthians 3:12
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